Wanting a little baby is a frustrating thing.
It hasn't been that long since my miscarriage,
but every time that "special" time of the month arrives
a little part of me sighs, and not with relief.
I know people mean well, but sometimes the phrases people say are...just funny.
"You don't want kids, you've got so much to do in life"
Well, what I want to do in life is be a mom
So, yes, I do want kids.
"When are you going to have children?"
I'm working on it.
There's only so much I can do on my part.
If only the little swimmers could swim faster!
I know I have no idea what's in store for me.
But my heart yearns when I see moms make little capes for their little boys,
so they can run around and pretend to be super heroes.
I see moms wanting to pull their hair out, because their
liitle girl was screaming all night long, and they didn't get any sleep.
I want to be there. I want to make a cape. I want to be up all night.
I know you're thinking, you're not going to want that once you get there,
but right now I do want it, and hopefully when I'm there, I'll remember.
And I know my life could be much worse, way worse.
But right now, this is what I'm going through and
I think others can relate.
I don't want people's sympathy.
I just needed to share.